It’s a Monday, and I decided to write.
Life is strange right now. I wanted to explore my thoughts and share some struggles and windfalls.
I want to lay out this blog post with options for the reader to skip over pieces that don’t seem realistically relevant or could inspire a sense of negative misunderstanding. If you choose to continue reading this post, then you are taking the chance of being exposed to some ideas I typically keep silent. I will be discussing deeply held ideals for myself and disappointments with some of the current happenings in the universe. Stop now, if you find this could be something too risky for your delicate nature.
Politics - Equality?
This shit is bananas. I’ve sat back, observed, given grace, and allowed my friends, family, and enemies to voice their opinions and share their intense views of the recent political happenings. I must say, some of you truly surprised me. I had no idea you all were harboring these thoughts, these values, these discriminatory beliefs about what it means to be a citizen of the United States of America. I won’t digress this time. I am actually appalled at some of the social media posts I’ve seen written, shared, and/or supported from people with whom I have spent large amounts of time. you hid it so well. You always made me feel like I was accepted, like I was loved, like you were open minded and made the conscious decision to be good, solid humans in this ever-changing landscape, but I was wrong. You played me. You played everyone. You did such a great job, and now I can see just who you really are. It’s wild, it really does make me feel so deceived. I have always been taught to see the best in people, to believe everyone is capable of being good, but I was fooled.
I am transported back to middle school with some of these people. I was very good friends with these people. They seemed so open minded, so accepting, in the opinion of “everyone deserves to be treated equally,” but adulthood has proven they are not those people. I wonder if these current people were shown the younger version of themselves, back when we were all awkward, jobless, with very little responsibility, would they be proud of the human they grew up to be?
Growing up as a gay person in a very small town in rural Southwest Louisiana, I knew I was different, I didn’t have to be told, but many of my classmates felt the need to remind me of just how different I was. There was a time where my intelligence, my positive outlook on life, and my extreme ambition to become something bigger and better than my small town was outshined by the fact that I was obviously gay, so none of the other things mattered. I was the subject of intense ridicule and torment, except for the pure, accepting humans that would sprinkle my life. I had many friends who seemed to accept me, who appeared to be able to set aside our differences and show me that I wasn’t the abomination that so many others were screaming at me. Those people are the reason I had hope. Now, however, some of those people are the same ones who are supporting an administration that is encouraging dismantling equal rights. These people have children. They are raising the future of this country, of this world, and I cannot help but take seriously the idea of what they will pass down to the future generations. What happened to our society? Did everyone lose their minds over the recent blip of existence, and now we’re left with such a clusterfuck of nonsense that will take several generations to figure out how to patch the holes, how to correct the choices, how to undo the votes for things that impact human nature as a whole.
I did not want to be different. There are conversations I’ve had with other gay people and other minorities about what it is like to not be “straight white” in the United States. This was not a choice. Would someone choose a life of unacceptance, a life where you are constantly fighting to be taken seriously, to prove that you are just as worthy, that you should not be treated differently, that you should be held to the same standards and given the same opportunities as every other human on this planet? Yet, this is exactly what is happening at this current stage of this perpetration of life. I do not want to be treated differently, I want to be treated equally. There is a serious problem of entitlement and blatant disregard for the wellbeing and safety of others in this country. I’m not straight, and I cannot just be straight, and I should not have had to fight as hard as I have to be considered equal and have the same right to marry as the rest of society. Why is it so difficult to see that equal rights is not a votable option. The idea of someone voting to take away someone else’s rights LITERALLY blows my mind. Who is thinking about gay people that much? I will never understand why people are thinking about gay people so much.
Do these people wake up thinking, “who can I tear down today?” Who has some rights that I don’t think they should have? Who’s the easiest target for me to snatch those rights? It makes no sense. Your decision, your vote, your choice is the deciding factor to take away someone’s right. It’s always been labeled as “gay rights” or “same sex marriage equality,” but you are not just taking away “gay rights,” you are taking away a human right. You are creating levels of society, limiting the rights of a group of people who deserve the same exact rights as everyone else. The United States has a history of controlling people based on their rights and this is just another example of the corruption in the government system that holds certain people down. It’s so unfortunate that we cannot have a fair and equal status in this country. There always has to be a race, gender, sexual orientation, or some other stupid identifying quality to separate the people. To divide the people. To make such a deep cut that certain groups cannot bounce back. If you are part of a group that wishes to divide the people, to limit someone’s equal rights, I have a message for you. Take a long look in the mirror and consider what you are doing. You are removing a right of a citizen of this country. You are telling someone they are lessor, that they don’t deserve the same level of rights as you. You are casting a decision that will impact whether someone is given the same inalienable rights as you. If you can live with that decision, then you have a major break down in your values, and you have darkness in your soul.
The idea of putting oneself in someone else's shoes is broken. The entitled sector of society finds it so difficult to fathom understanding someone else’s life that they have given up on even trying. I hope no one ever threatens to take away any of your simple pleasures, much less any of your actual legal rights. People are always trying to justify their evil choices with something from the Bible or an interpretation of something they heard from a preacher trying to make sure his pockets stay lined, but the truth is, it’s always a contradiction. Treat others as you’d want to be treated doesn’t seem to ring true anymore. Some people don’t want to treat others with the same respect as they expect, and unfortunately, if enough of those people show up to vote, society will fail to uphold the idea of equal rights. What’s so bad about equal rights? Is there a problem with everyone being able to legally do the same thing as everyone else? God forbid the “majority” and I say that with extra air quotes because straight white people aren’t technically the majority anymore, God forbid they ever have to suffer the thought of losing any rights. I challenge anyone reading this to take yourself out of your shoes, and strategically imagine what it must feel like to not have just as many legal rights as everyone else.
I was born in a time where marriage equality was not a thing. It was a right that did not seem to be equal among same sex couples. In 2015, the community gained its right to be just as special as everyone else in the United States, and now in 2025, consideration is being heard to take away that right. How silly of a society to actually consider removing a legal right that just levels the playing field. People are people, and none should be limited for any reason. It hurts to know the option for me to ever get married could be stripped from my future. Don’t let this happen, please.
If you skipped over the politics part, then you aren’t left with much. I meant for this message to be mostly about equal rights, and I feel good about raising my voice in this blog post. I don’t care if you have a differing opinion, and I hope you don’t feel the need to try to argue with me. I’m shrinking my circle of people who truly matter to me every day, and chances are you wouldn’t make the cut anyway.
I still intend to focus on love, and I want to manifest a brighter future for myself and the people who matter to me. I know we will find that future, I just hope it doesn’t take too long to get through this unfortunate phase. In closing, I want everyone to know that you are always going to get exactly what you bargained for. If you voted for the person who is currently running the country, then you got exactly what you wanted. You are going to have your white straight version of the United States for as long as it lasts, but it won’t be forever, because it’s unrealistic. It’s a facade. That isn’t a true representation of the United States, and if you think really long and hard about it, it’s never been a true representation. It’s an illusion of something that’s been problematic for centuries. The people running the country are not the people living, working, building, and creating the future of the country. The melting pot of the United States is still strong, yes it has been threatened, and decisions are made constantly to remove the notion of equality, but the people are here. The people are here to represent.