It’s been almost two years since my life was flipped upside down and inside out, when Hurricane Laura blasted through my community. The devastation caused such enormous damage that after living off a generator for a month, I made the decision to relocate to Houston, TX. Luckily, through all the madness, I met my fiancé, and began a new path on my journey.
The love grew over time, and the life began to take shape. The job I had found to get myself through the relocation was doing the trick, and unexpectedly, I was recruited into this traveling career. It’s been over a year of traveling and presenting my knowledge and skills to companies across the country.
I felt like I was truly the person I always wanted to be. I have the job, the car, the apartment in the city, and the love of a truly amazing human. All these things were brought into my life as a result of a trauma with which I am still dealing.
Ask anyone from my small town if they’re truly okay, and you’ll get the same response. We will never be okay. Natural disasters happen regularly around the world, and Southwest Louisiana is no exception. Our kind of natural disaster at least gives us a warning a few days ahead of time to get out, but the damage left behind after it’s gone is life changing.
I recall being evacuated in San Marcos, Texas as Hurricane Laura developed stronger and stronger in the Gulf of Mexico until she was finally ready to go inland. It was a big storm, but size cannot compare to the speed. More than 200 mile per hour winds tore everything apart in her path, and my home and my parents’ home were no exception. The land I had spent my entire life was forever altered. My parents were able to rebuild and put things back where they belonged, and I was able to move away and start a new life, but the emotional and psychological damage are a different story. The amount of trauma that I carry around with me is difficult to measure.
I have a happy life. I have a great family and all the creature comforts that most people dream of, however, it doesn’t heal the heartbreak that Hurricane Laura caused my life. Such an enormous amount of heartbreak that it has taken much longer than expected to truly address or heal from it.
I thought I was going to lose my mind. I tried so hard to be grateful for the changes the hurricane brought, but in reality, I liked being in my little part of the country. I come from rural roots, so part of me was convinced that I was supposed to live out my days in Southwest Louisiana with my family. That’s not what happened, and I’m glad I was flung into a new life, but there’s no denying the effects of a giant shift like this. I knew it was time to at least start the healing process, and get the ball rolling.
My friend Patricia suggested I go see a mutual friend of ours about having my chakras unblocked. I am a very spiritual person, and I’ve heard clearing a chakra can make a difference, but I’ve never had an overwhelming feeling like, “omg, my chakra is so blocked right now!” I honestly felt like I was soulful and self aware enough to be able to just clear my own chakras and go about my business. This time was different.
I’ve learned to trust the guardians in my life, and this time, I knew I needed to at least explore the possibility of my soul having some issues. I scheduled an appointment with our mutual friend, and I drove from Houston to Lake Charles to see what would happen.
I really enjoy living outside of the box, and this experience was way further than I’ve ever gone. I was asked why I felt I needed to have my chakras unblocked, and the easiest way to describe it was chaos. I have been feeling like life had turned into chaos and that very few things were truly how I wanted them, or even what I wanted. I felt I was living in some sort of alternate reality, where I just played my role until I had opportunities to shut it off and decompress. That was really beginning to way heavily on me because I’m a Taurus and we’re meant to be free!
I was instructed to blow all the chaos and everything involved in it into the stone I had chosen. This was both symbolic and realistic for me. It was going to shift my entire life, a whole life paradigm was about to happen, and this experience did not disappoint. We began by finding which chakra needed addressing. She took a pendulum and the clear chakras would spin clockwise and any chakra needing to be unblocked would be counterclockwise.
I’ve always had issues with love and being loved, so it was no surprise that my heart chakra was blocked. She placed the stone over my heart, and we began the healing process. It wasn’t witchy or crazy. It was mostly just stimulation of the energies. I needed to address the issues that were keeping my heart blocked, and find the answers!
She asked me to call on my spirit guides or guardian angels to be present through this experience. Of course, I thought of my favorite people who had passed, my great grandmother, Momo Esther, and my grandmother, MawMaw Sue. Both are definitely qualified to watch over me and I always feel protected knowing they’re there. The strange thing was, about a minute later, I was getting all in the mental zone, and my cousin Wesley popped into my head. He’s been gone quite a few years, but I remember thinking, “I didn’t expect YOU to be here!” and I thanked him for showing up. Also, randomly, the name Bryan showed up in my head, which is the name of my close friend from high school who had passed. I knew I was protected.
We kept going on this healing journey, and I began feeling the issues seem less and less important. I was not quite sure what was happening, but it was really getting good! She used an energy sensor to see if I had any other high frequency areas. My left shoulder showed high energy, which is no surprise to me because I had been in an automobile accident in 2009, which caused some trauma to my shoulder and neck. Shortly after, she prayed over me and it was finished.
We took a moment to visit everything that has happened through the chakra cleaning experience. She told me, now I had no said anything about my guides, that there was a male presence in the room. So, I explained how Wesley pooped into my mind. Things got really interesting when she said earlier that morning, she has seen the letter W three different times on a walk. I was overwhelmed with emotion because Wesley and I weren’t super close, but he was definitely taken too soon. It’s nice to know he’s watching over me.
We wrapped up with a prayer and my homework was to give myself more grace and allow myself to feel the things I need to feel.
My experience may not make sense to everyone, and that’s okay. It was mine, and if you ever have something like that occur, you’re more blessed than you’ll ever realize. The magic is all around us, it’s just hard to focus enough to feel it and recognize it. I’ve made huge strides since the chakra cleansing and I know I may have to revisit the healer, and I’m okay with that.
My complicated past will not dictate my future.
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