Sunday, April 18, 2021
Love, oh love…what to say.
When I signed up for love, I wasn’t exactly sure what to expect. There are the movies of “what love’s supposed to look like,” but they aren’t reality. The funny thing about movies is that it inspires some people to live their lives that way, almost as a playbook for how things should go, except that they aren’t true reality. Drawing inspiration is healthy, but your life is not that life. Your life cannot be compared to anyone else’s.
My love is no exception. I found an amazing connection that has change my whole life. The way I do things now, the route I take, and future planning have all taken a figurative highway exit into this new paradigm for the reality of my life.
In that transition to nurturing a healthy love, inadvertently, there are pieces that create a ripple effect. Looking at time takes on a whole new perspective.
I never knew a love like this existed. When I first stepped into this, I knew I loved him, but I didn’t realize I was going to want to do everything in life with him. I didn’t realize I was going to be so excited in the idea of spending every single day with him for the rest of my life. I didn’t know, even just the idea of spending a night without him, would give me anxiety. I’ve never known love like this was possible.
He makes me feel so special every moment we’re together. He has the ability to make me feel like I’m normal and that my oddities aren’t so “out there.” I have a person that celebrates me and always tries to include me as an equal.
He loves to show me off. I’ve never had a man give me so much life! It’s so awesome to be the boyfriend next to this guy! He’s such a beacon of hope and joy. He inspires me, on a regular basis, to stay the course and strive to get the most out of life.
That’s the kind of energy I need in order to continue on this highway of life. Having a partner, a best friend, a sweet angel on earth to walk with through this journey makes every day so much easier! I always believed in soul mates, and I feel I’ve found someone that connects just as much with my soul as my brain. (looks are an added bonus.)
With this type of love, I can understand how communication with some of my coupled friends faded away over time. It’s no ones fault, it’s an inevitable reality. When I’m at work, I’m busy. Evenings don’t always allow for a lot of quality time. When there are days off where we can both come together, we try to spend as much time together as possible. That’s the way our love works.
That doesn’t mean that I love anyone else any less, it’s just that my free time is allocated a little differently. I am so excited with the way my life is and I don’t feel guilty about that.
I feel like I am doing all the best things for myself for now, which is something I haven’t done in large parts of my life. I focused a lot of my time and energy on making sure others were pleased in life, without really taking time for my own happiness. When my life was forced to change months ago, I had an opportunity to take control of my own journey.
I continue focusing on being 100% satisfied with my life and the decisions I make for my future. Having love along on the journey helps me realize how all those infamous couples lasted a lifetime.
Falling in love with Shawn taught me what love is.
♥️