Hi, my name is Tyler Theriot, and I’m on a really cool journey. Many of you have probably seen my photo posts that involved the physical manifestation of some of my ideas. I just want everyone to know that I’m truly blown away by many of my own visions that I have been able to actually bring to life, using supplies that haven’t been incredibly difficult to secure.
These are wonderful representations of the journey that I’m on, however, it’s much more of a metaphysical understanding journey.
It has been exactly two years, down to the week, since my life was dramatically changed. I thought I had life all the way figured out. Through all the trials and tribulations and a lot of bad dates, I thought I had figured out the perfect situation for myself and was ready to live life to the fullest. I learned, through a series of unfortunate events, that I knew nothing about life or what I was supposed to be doing with it. That’s the setup. I don’t need to go into detail, but I will begin this next section with my strategy to clear the dense fog from my life.
I am a huge proponent of counseling. Here’s a tip I learned about life, you can’t do it alone. You can try, but there is always someone that is a specialist on certain things that will require you to depend on them. So, if you are experiencing something in your life that is bigger than you, and you cannot make heads or tales of it, why not get a second opinion? I sat through a series of sessions that primarily consisted of me sitting across from a psychologist and I shared my thoughts with her. I’m scatterbrained most of the time, however, I suffer from anxiety, so when a specific thought strikes a nerve in me, I fixate on it until I find a different situation that is even more thought provoking as a replacement. When I stepped onto this roller coaster, I had no idea how invigorating it would be to speak to someone that could offer educated advice and points of view and insight that would ultimately get me to now.
I moved out of my apartment. I was month to month renting a great apartment, with the intent that if the rent ever went up, I would move out. Lo and behold, my rent went up. Granted, it was only $50 a month, but it was principle. I knew what I had to do.
I decided to get an estimate to build a shouse, or a barndomieum, the metal building houses. I had my reservations right off the bat, because I knew cellular signal would be an issue, and that’s something I’d hated to have to deal with living in that metal building behind my parents house. The estimate wasn’t too expensive, it was just the idea of building. I’m pretty intune with the real estate business, and I’ve had plenty of friends that have built recently, so I had a good idea of how overwhelming that was going to be. I’ll say this, I have a lot of patience, I work in a management role in the financial services industry, for Christ’s sake! But I would literally die if I had to go through some of the nightmares they had. My heart would stop beating, that would just be the end. I could never intentionally put myself through that, no matter the reward in the end. So, I went a different route.
My parents had always said that they would be okay with me building, putting a house on a chunk of their acreage. So, I made the financially responsible, hippy lifestyle living decision to order a manufactured home. I made sure I checked all the specs to insure that I would own a well made, showstopper home, within reason, of course.
I wanted character. I wanted to get home from work, and not regret the whole experience. I wanted to own my dream home, on a strict budget. I wanted to live cheaply, not frugally, cheaply. The roof over my head should never cost me $1000, and that’s considered cheaper rent in this thriving metropolis. I needed to pay less for my living expenses so that I could free up income for travel to truly experience the world. I literally cut my living expenses in half! (That reminds me of that part in Bridesmaids when she’s talking about breaking the blanket in half after her sons jizzed all over it, but I digress.)
It took a few months for my home to arrive, but I planned enough time to move out of my apartment and into my parents space before my home arrived. I should have known, but the delivery date was pushed back a bit, so, I had to live in extremely close quarters until the house came in.
It finally arrived. You’d think I’d be overjoyed, right? Everything that could go wrong did! Broken pipes, accidentally cut pipes, delays, delays due to human error, like my phone number being given incorrectly to all of the technicians that were supposed to be installing my air conditioning, skirting, washer and dryer, and meanwhile, I’m trying not to lose my shit on my family because they were just closest in proximity to catch the hell.
Have you ever had a month of bad days, where literally every. single. day had some sort of bad news?! I did, literally every day there would be more issues which resulted in me dishing out more money. Luckily, I had planned ahead. I cannot believe just how expensive it is to have a home. I never expected all of the expenses that came my way.
Through all of the issues, arose the most amazing home! It’s basically complete inside, and the outside is on its way to completion. I just need to finish landscaping and add some snazzy outdoor space, and it feels AMAZING! I love posting pictures of my house because I’m in love with it. I made such an amazing decision with my life to simplify and reevaluate what I need over what I thought I wanted.
During the whole home ownership transition, I had issues. My mind was unsettled. The serious questions often passed through my mind: Is this what I truly want? Is this what I need for my life? And the fundamental answer stayed the same: You need a roof over your head, a space to call your own, and this is the most financially sound decision to stay on the tract of having a truly happy life.
I stopped thinking of the world as my limited options, and realized that I truly can do anything, within reason. I harnessed the power of my own energy, positive and negative, and neutral in between. I was spread so thinly, that I had put other people’s happiness and consideration before I own. I didn’t even know how to make myself happy because I was too busy guaranteeing that my friends, families, enemies were all happy, instead of myself. I couldn’t pinpoint when I began prioritizing everyone else over myself, but I knew it had to stop. It’s not easy to cut yourself off from people that you’ve shown can greatly depend on you, but I had to. I felt empty. I needed my energy back to start to feel again.
I realized that I was putting my energy into things that didn’t benefit me at all. I discovered that I was giving energy to people that didn’t deserve it. All the bullies in my early life, I held onto a fear that they instilled in me. Those people are just simple humans just like me. Nothing they did to me back then killed me, so why did I still give them a great deal of negative, sabotaging energy.
I took it back.
I took back all of the energy that was being wasted on nonsense, and I transformed it into positive energy. I thought of ways that I could impact the world more than trying to force a square into a circle hole. So many of the things I had failed at were because I shouldn’t have been doing them in the first place.
Here was the changing factor for me: when I was growing up, I was taught a lot of rules of life. I was taught right from wrong, responsibility, how to be a gentleman, and to honor my parents wishes, until I was old enough to be off on my own. Unfortunately, those rules weren’t enforceable on my free spirited soul. I’ve never quite followed the beat to which the rest of the world listens. I think. I think a lot. About things that matter and things that don’t. I grew up in a society that shamed people for sharing their unusual thoughts, including conversations regarding emotions.
“Life is hard, and you can’t let it get to you,” always seemed to be the easy way to get me and the rest of my generation to keep our mouths shut about our feelings. I was conditioned to believe that no one wants to hear me complain about being sad or unhappy. Everyone has their own problems, and mine were no greater, but I still always wanted to share my ideas. I talk a lot about the ideas in my head because I would hate to know that an idea I may have, is missed or wasted, considering it may contain some insight that could truly help someone else in need.
I have grown very close to philosophy, because I fit the description of what philosophers are. I both consciously and subconsciously think deeply about life, pondering what is the most effective way for humans to continue to thrive. Through this deep thought, comes a few negative revelations, however. It’s depressing in how many different ways we are ruining the planet earth. I don’t understand how our civilization got so far off track. We are ruining the earth, yet we do very little to try to correct the damage. We’d rather get the latest iPhone or drive the fanciest new car than consider how much pollution is entering the air we breath or the water we drink. I’m guilty of it, as well, however, I think about the consequences. I think we’ve gotten to a point as a society that we have lost sight of the fact that we are limited to what is on the earth. Once it’s used up, then what? But I digress again, just some food for thought.
The curveball life through me, I caught. Every day is a new enlightening experience, and I can honestly say that at this point in my life, I am happy to wake up. I may not be happy with the goings on in the world, but that’s not my problem. I only have this tiny spec of a lifetime on this giant grapefruit, so I’m going to do everything possible to leave a mark. Don’t you want people to remember you, or would you rather be forgotten, like those poor sad old people that either die alone at home, or locked away in a nursing home because no one has time for them? I’m going to squeeze as much into my story as possible.