So, let’s talk about life.
Life is about living, don’t you know? Yesterday, I committed to a necessary change in my life.
For the last 11 years, I dedicated 40 hours, 5 days a week to a specific role with a company as part of corporate America. I started at the lowest level, achieved a few promotions and ended up quite comfortable in middle management. I had opportunities to travel, work on special projects, become a successful manager, and gained a tremendous wealth of knowledge and experience throughout the process. I grew so much as a human. My brain was transformed into a strong machine that found solutions for any problem. I was entrusted to make decisions for the benefit of over 30,000 account holders. I trained people, I created best practices, I wrote policies and procedures, and my criticisms and influences were used to enhance lacking systems. I carried responsibilities I never knew I could possibly handle. I built an entire call center, one that is so successful that it almost seems surreal. So many accomplishments, so much credit given, so many people depending on me. After all that, I thought I’d feel complete. I thought I’d feel like I was living my best life. Like I was killing it. Like I had the life that I’d be jealous of.
The truth is, I was working so hard to make everything else work, and pleasing everyone around me, that I forgot about myself. I literally forgot to make myself happy. I would try to find time for myself around the career, but there was always something more to be done. Ultimately, I put myself on the back burner. My happiness was almost forgotten.
¡¡¡UNTIL RIGHT NOW!!!
Ever hear of a leap of faith? Ever actually taken one? I did it, yesterday! I sat down with my boss and explained my current situation. It was almost time for me to commit to more projects, and I chose not to. I chose to give a month’s notice. After July 19th, I will no longer have the responsibility that kept me from enjoying my life to the fullest. I am breaking my commitment to my middle management job, and I’m placing my entire bet on my future.
I only have this one life. I can’t stay in a box that I was never meant to be in. I don’t fit in that box. I tried, for many, many years, but no self convincing ever changed the fact that it just didn’t work. I will be forever grateful for any and all opportunities that came along with my career, but it’s time to shake things up.
I don’t really have a plan. I just knew that if I didn’t commit to the change, more years would pass. I’d miss out on more potential life options, and I’d still be selling myself short.
There’s something everyone should know about me. I’m amazing.
I don’t mean that in a braggity way, because anyone who knows me, knows that I’m dancing to the beat of a different drum. Hell, probably even an entirely different type of drum that hasn’t even been created yet. I always say I’m a human anomaly. Not everyone understands me, and that’s okay, but the ones that do...they recognize it, it makes them smile, and they get all giddy! (That’s happened, on multiple occasions!)
I believe in being authentic. I was really good at my job, but I always have to be true to me, so when I’d have to put on that work role, it always felt like it wasn’t right. Like those jeans that make your ass sag, but sometimes they’re comfortable, but you never really want to wear them out in public because they misshape you and people could get the wrong impression of you having a saggy ass, when in reality, you have a really great ass!
I HAVE A REALLY GREAT ASS!
I was blessed with a spirit that truly produces positive change. I stay on the bright side. I flip the script on just about any bad situation. I try my hardest to maintain a positive point of view, and I’ll never stop trying to get people on board. Positivity promotes prosperity.
Recently, I’ve been told several times that I’m irreplaceable. I want to stress how important that word is. Every single person that stands outside of the box is rare. We are all irreplaceable because we carry a strength and energy that many people wish they could possess. People have said they wish they could do the same thing I’m doing. I’ve heard, “I’m too old, I’m too comfortable, I have 5 weeks of vacation, or I just don’t have the option to do that.” Those are all excuses that seem legitimate, however, anyone can do anything at any age. It may be difficult and it may make you feel like you should double up on your Depends®️, but you certainly can do anything.
We only have one shot at this life! I can’t stress that enough! My time is way too valuable to be wasting it at something that doesn’t fulfill my destiny. So, going forward, I will be transforming into the Tyler that’s always been pushed to the back burner. I have skills that I never got to use in my old career. I’m ready to become the amazing human that I was destined to be. I’m ready to inspire everyone I touch, figuratively and literally. I’m scared shitless, because I can’t predict anything that will happen from this moment forward. The reality is, I couldn’t predict it anyway, so why not put my truest self out there and see what happens.
I was living a half truth. I don’t regret any piece of it, however, I wish I would have made the decision sooner. Life happens...but now I get to truly live it, live it well, and on my terms. It’s my happiness that matters most.
All I can say is look out . There is a huge part of my amazingness that was being held back. Now, I plan on tapping into that and showing off that great human. I’m an artist, on canvas, on paper, in nature, and in life. I paint with all the colors of the wind, and I believe in having fun with life. Expression is my gig!
Here we go.♥️
TT